OMFG!!! (Oh my fucking god)

I got my lip* ring out, by the way did i tell you i got a hair cut!? I hate it :)

Lights - February Air
*some one glue my hair back on!

Lazy in the picture taking department

Seriously, i need to get with it!
day 2 of P90x.
blah blah blah
calorie counting.
Protein shakes.
Core strategics really kicked my ass yesterday.


School all over again

Accounting - missed
Math - quiz on Wednesday
Econ - Institutions

Weeks started off good, P90x was hard, i couldn't finish the first whole video, i did my best though, i will start the actual program once i can get through that first video with no problem, till then i have to get into decent shape!


Saturaday night fever

Anime songs, pics of mot, bored pics around the house, sitting around, pani poori, Manchurian, REALLY GOOD FOOD, crazy weather while i am trying to sleep, WTF!? Watching lovely complex, hilarious movie, My weekend is awesome so far!



And that concluded my weekend.


Cum smelling flowers... eww

I couldn't have had a better Sunday!! The weather was nice, camera in hand, boyfriend in a happy mood, simply blissful. Me and Zain decided to go to Newport News today, to look for an adventure. He took me to Fort Eustis, where we went to museums, and even FREE putputing. We drove around, stopping at every location i wanted to snap some shots. We saw horses and a whole bunch of pelicans in the water. I got to see all the different helicopters, and war automobiles the military used to use, maybe still do. It was a lot of fun. After that we ended up going to york town beach. It brought back so many memories to the first summer when me and zain met. We didnt walk on the beach or anything, but zain drove around looking for places he could do tricks. Driving around, we came across this clan of bikers, and i think zain found a bike he really really liked. I really liked it too, it was this military green color in mat instead of that glossy paint we usually see displayed. After that we finally parked and found a place for me to shoot zain doing tricks. I was really impressed, he never ceases to take my breath away. It was about sun down, and getting chilly, we where both pretty hungry so we decided to head over to Zains parents house. Zain was talking with his mom on the phone while she was driving home from work, we stood outside. She had no idea, and she was soooo happy that we came to visit, much as my mom would be had i done the same thing. We already made plans for next weekend too, Zains mom and dad and bros are going to come down on Saturday and spend the day with us. After spending a couple hours over there, I called up Sabrina to see what she was up to. We ended up heading over to her place. I deff drank, a much needed stress relief. It was so nice catching up with her. She looks so amazing too, and of course Mary too! I love the way mine and Sabrina's friend ship is though, its almost like an ancient text. I really missed her a lot. We made plans too since they couldn't make it to my 21st. Mary, Sabrina are going to take me out to the Rainbow Cactus on Friday night. My first time to a bar+ a gay bar. I cant wait its going to be SOO much fun i know it. I just have to remember not to smoke when i get drunk, i don't want to get into smoking. Im still desperately waiting for my videos to come in YAY, zain finally ordered my P90x today *grin*



...its Friday


pauv- bhaji overdose

collab Dee&UmiSan

Me and My Biggie

So the other day, maybe about 2 weeks ago, i finally spent some of my B-day money at Micheals. I bought my self a biggie sketch book, so that i can draw all my anime style drawings in it. Ive drawn a couple things so far.


Lacking Effort

Really, I've never been me.
I'm a real fake, but
I would surely give it all up
just so waste some time with you.
I feel like i haven't
found anything at all.
I keep searching for it
calling out to it, to you,
louder and louder
my piercing voice doesn't...
never reaches you
I'm choking on yellow
waiting for something
waiting for nothing.
I guess if i keep searching,
Ill never find it.
So, ill let it go
Ill let you go,
since ill never find anything at all
I'd rather keep running knowing nothing at all.

Tropical Blend

kiwi kiwi your so green
and i love to bite your little seeds
sweet yet sour
i will devour
you taste so damn good
i would eat your fuzz if i could.

I Wonder...

If any of my CLOSE friends even bother reading my blog... other than the wonderful Mina-Lo :)



my very first landscape painting; work in progress

Happy St. Patties Day

  1. My favorite color changes periodically, just as often as seasons do.
  2. I like to read books before going to sleep because they make me sleepy.
  3. I really like to eat spicy food, and i can never turn down good Indian food.
  4. I am not religious, yet i like to study it.
  5. I observe people like they are mice.
  6. I like to sing to myself.
  7. I believe i can do anything i put my mind to, i just have to want it bad enough.
  8. I often put friends before family.
  9. Relationships are priorities not accessories to me.
  10. I write poetry only when I'm super emotional.
  11. I like to buy things for other people more than shopping for myself.
  12. I am lazier than most people realize.
  13. I pride myself in how versatile i am.
  14. I strongly believe in individuality, and self expression.
  15. I love art, music, and fashion.
  16. I love reading manga, and watching anime.
  17. I have become not so independent after meeting Zain.
  18. I make wishes on eye lashes because of that one movie, Hum dil de chuke sanam.
  19. Indian people always think im Mexican, or something.
  20. I want a half full sleeve. (tattoo)
  21. I wish i had more time to spend on art.
  22. I think my parents are too pushy and not supportive enough.
  23. I can come up with really fly dance routines in my head but my body can never express them.
  24. I am often too lazy to eat when I am hungry.
  25. I survive on fruits.
  26. I love challenges.
  27. I always tend to think before i act unless i am really angry.
  28. I hardly ever get pissed
  29. I am way to nice to people that annoy me.
  30. I don't really care about what people think of me.
  31. Often when i look in the mirror i see someone who is really fat.
  32. I try my best not to judge people i don't know, but i know its human nature to jump to conclusions.
  33. Betrayal by friends is what really hurts me the most, its also the only thing that gets me really pissed off.
  34. I've always wanted to write my own songs, and play tunes to go with them on the guitar
  35. I wish i had more time to learn more songs on the guitar
  36. Peoples talents are what makes the world such a wonderful place to live in.
  37. Seeing nature captured in its true form and beauty, weather it be in a memory, picture, art or writing, always moves me.
  38. I never forget faces, but ill never remember names, if i do remember names it is always fist and last.
  39. I think i have a very sharp memory when it comes to events, not when it comes to school.
  40. I would much rather hang out with a small group of close friends than a group of people i never knew existed.
  41. I believe in aliens and the supernatural.
  42. I can only be myself around people who let their guard down first.
  43. I don't trust people.
  44. I would much rather have a dog than a cat.
  45. I work to become IDEAL in my OWN EYES.
  46. I check out girls, and I don't feel like that makes me lesbian.
  47. I don't talk negatively about people unless they have done something to offend me personally.
  48. I am always aware of my surroundings and notice things that most people don't.
  49. I'm not very picky, but very picky.
  50. I only complain to one person.



Back to School

Its Monday, and we are back to school. I am kinda happy to go back to school, surprisingly not as stressed as i should be. Although i do need to pull up my grades and all that, i am pretty satisfied with where i stand right now, except in accounting. We still have like 4 tests though in that class so i am kinda hoping to be some how miraculously saved. My mom got me another ring, i was suppose to put it on today, but seeing how I'm on my period, and we aren't suppose to touch god, god only i guess knows why, when we are on our period. Honestly i don't like to depreciate my human worth to god just because i am female and bleeding from my snatch, but i guess some things cant be reasoned. I think its just stupid, how are you gonna tell me i cant pray because i am ovulating. whatever ima leave it alone, it probably has some sort of crazy cosmic story about it and I am clearly just to ignorant to understand that my period makes me too "dirty" to be presented in front of god. Its been raining for what seems to be the whole week now, seriously i know the whole saying showers bring flowers, but seriously its not APRIL, nor is it warm so... I have tests one after another this week, which should go okay as long as i get study time in. Ive been keeping up with my work outs as well, and i am finally about to order the P90X. Ill take before and after pictures i think, but i don't know if anyone really cares. Seriously though in 90 days if i look bomb as hell and feel like a million dollars ima recommend it to everyone i know. People say i can always make a sale, i believe it too. When i started Clinique, i pretty much got everyone i knew to start it too. I guess its that year i spent at Hechts selling handbags, it got to my head and now i use it in every day life. Well me and Zain are about to go meet his co-worker at buffalo wild wings, not like i can eat anything there. Which reminds me! CONGRATULATIONS TO ME!!! i have been a veggie-tarian since new years!

Okay so i have this friend right, and seriously i guess he will be pissed if he even bothers reading this, but he prolly doesn't so I'm not worried. Back to the story. I have this friend right, he is Indian, and we have all our classes together. Which i pretty much made happen because i figured since i hate school and never go to class having someone i know in all my classes will make me go more often so i don't look bad. Anyways, if you don't know, I'm not very impressed with Indian girls at VCU. Well i don't really like girls period. I never really made "girl-friends" because it was just too complicated. So anyways i was having this conversation with my friend from class about Indian chicks, and how i honestly believe that they don't take care of themselves and that's why they look a mess. Of course not all but most, and that's why they look like raccoons with make up all over the place. Eye make up remover, buy some! Anyways I'm not a hater, i just wish people would take care of them selves more. I don't understand people who can just let themselves go. Honestly i cry for hours if i look like i have gained a little bit of weight and get cracking right away after the initial shock. So anyways i was expressing my opinions to him. And supposedly over spring break he got hooked up with this one Indian chick. So he comes back to school and is all complaining (which sounded much like my opinions of Indian chicks regurgitated back at me), which in turn i knew was just his was of expressing the exact opposite of the way he really felt. Low and behold i see them together today when i am walking back from art history, that he missed and asked me to sign him in... It was actually pretty funny because here i am walking up to those two, seriously SMIRKING to myself, because of all these things he says, but i know actions speak so much louder than words. He even goes as far as telling her how i came and sat next to him in our first math class together and asked him if he had understood the homework, and that our "relationship" had been smooth ever since then. The chick honestly looked super confused and i kinda felt sorry for her. But then again if i was her i would feel intimidated by me too. I mean come on here comes a Indian chick piercings, tattoos, make up fair skin, tall, pretty much bigger than her, i would be a little taken back too, something he obviously didn't pick up on. Her look made the whole thing kind of awkward on my side but i left it alone. Even though i know i have known him for a while i guess I'm a pretty hard nut to crack. I just don't get that friendly that quickly with people I don't embarrass him, damn it i am too nice. Maybe i just don't care, but its always so interesting to study people like him. I sound so weird. i guess that's just me i love observing people like that. But one thing i was wrong about, in her pictures she didn't look all that attractive but seeing her face to face, she is pretty cute, i guess. If she likes him, then i guess i would say I'm pretty impressed by him... really get. I just think back to the whole thing and i realize how many times i could have put him in his place, but it really doesn't affect me, nor is it my place to comment to someone i don't know about his personal matters, i guess its just too trivial to me to even compose an honest opinion.
Something that really ticked me off today was this other Indian guy in my art history class. Honestly i was just sitting in class during our five minute break doodling away minding my own business, and here comes Mr.Macho man asking me "oh _________ didn't come to class today!?" and i look up and am like oh your talking to me, "ummm no i guess _________ didn't come to class today, _________ had a meeting to go to. So he is all like oh well i am about to leave you think you can sign me in on the attendance? So I'm like thinking to myself... and he writes his name on my book or whatever and is like i got you next time. So i think to myself Seriously i didn't really care till he said i got you next time, I'm not that stupid to fall for formalities, cut the shit and be straight up if your gonna use people you don't know. I was just happy that the role was never passed around and i didn't have the burden to sign someones name i didn't even know, and at that someone who threw stupid lines at me to get me to buy his bull shit.


Captivated by You

Your every wish, master, is my command. I now surrender my heart to you, willingly, to have you crush it if you'd please. To have you make me look a fool would be the greatest honor if it be for thy love. To have your honest love is the reason i stay strong to serve you and put up with this god forsaken life. It is the very reason i stay alert to your every need, your every desire. To keep you happy, keeps me unconditionally warm inside. To keep your lips from slouching keeps me optimistic and unwary. Your dreams and achievements make your fantasy into my reality.


Pie Day 3.14

Happy Birthday George!! JeeGa-Ji!! (^3^)
maggie mom made for lunch
caught you mahhahah
you think your so clean huh?
My sister is the best cupcake maker i know
KuJo, true life, you thought you knew but you have no idea
simply beautiful
"hello hello hello, whats that clicking sound!?"


Friday the Thirteenth

I look like my mom hair pulled back no make up, i look like my dad with hair done and make up on, that's what the lady said... How does that make any sense!?
She also said, " Did You Know!? Your name is my name with a C before it"... No idiot i didn't notice that, when i obviously SEE it on your name tag...
I hate stupid people.
Its Friday the Thirteenth. And its Raining, cold. Boo Hoo put a cap in it!
The lady also assumed because me and my mother are Indian we don't know what Friday the thirteenth is. She really is an idiot.


Bokura Ga Ita <3

The best Anime ever, I wish i was Nanami, meeting my Yano for the first time, moving through all the motions of love all over again.


Long Drive Home

Its Wednesday and I am finally actually going home for spring break. I definitely too my time heading out today. I woke up at Zains house, we spent all morning working out. We where pretty tired because we ended up watching an Anime movie last night called Princess Monenoke. It was a really good movie, Zain liked it a lot and that made me happy too. After eating we ended up taking turns on the bench lifting weights. I also did some sit ups and floor exercises. It was kind of fun working out together, i really want to be in good shape for myself, and for Zain. I want to be really confident. People have told me that they always think i am confident, but in fact, i really am insecure. I am always conscious of the way i look, weight wise. I know that i am not ugly or anything so I'm not concerned with my make up being perfect of anything like that but yeah. I also called Phillips to get my car serviced. I have a lot of shit to get fixed. My sunroof isn't opening and my CD player is stuck. On top of those i have to get a service B done, which is like $400. I hope that the car just gets fixed right this time. I really don't want to go home but i guess i don't really HAVE A CHOICE. I just hope i get my car back so that i can go out and hang out with friends and stuff instead of being stuck in the house.



A Beautiful day spent out doors, it was wonderful. Today Zain and I went to Maymount Park. It was the best ever. Although we didnt get to see the little museum part because it was closed, we did get to see all the cool animals. We pretty much spent all day out at the park, we also decided that it was the most awsome place to go sledding next time it snows. Its really suprising to me how Byrd Park is right next door to Maymount but the atmosphere is totally different. I ended up getting a tan line, not exactly what i wanted. We went to eat at Red Robins as well, it was the BEST. I was craving like Crazy some veggie burger. I got the sroom burger, it was a bit soggy, but i put it on a plate and ate it with fork and knife. That way it wasnt to messy, and comfortable to eat too. OMG i totally love their onion rings, they arent too gressy. They were sooo yum. After the eating and park we came back to zains house and washed the cars. We made them all shinny and look like new. My car really needed a cleaning, it was still all white from the salt and snow.