Richmond Zoo

Today Zain took me to the Richmond zoo.

BlaH-Ah-Ha-Ha

Today is the most off day i had in a while, but i blame Zain for that. I seriously think he woke up on the wrong side of the bed. Who knows, but supposedly i cant go to sleep when i am still tired, and have to spend time with him. Even though when he is tired i have to let him sleep and go occupy my self. Today i have to do the kenpo X video, I totally DONT feel like it. I was super hungry last night and seriously tired of STARVING all the fucking time. Loosing weight is such a chore.

Yesterday i had a pretty good day, i went to Trishas graduation party. It was a lot of fun, i got to hang out with new people get exposed, it was a healthy feeling. I tried to get Zain out there, but things never work out... So i brought him back some chicken, coke, and cake. He said that it was REALLY GOOD, so thanks Lopez family for the WONDERFUL food :)

I wish i could sit around all day and do nothing.

deformation

Loosing weight is such a strange thing your body goes through. It takes so much patience. One week your arms look tiny and your back still fat. Then your legs start catching up, then your mid section looks wider than longer, and you start to loose any shape that you even had before. You start loosing things that you wanted to keep and gain things you wanted to loose. It all comes with the package i guess. For now ill just avoid mirrors and cameras. I really hope my face looses weight, high cheek bones, squared off jaw line, prominent butt chin, larger looking eyes. Would be nice if changes occurred over night. I did the legs and back video today, my legs are definitely shaky. Feels good to give it your all though, im glad im sticking it out this week. I am very stressed out though, i have yet to return to my house, ive been free loading at Zains just to get away from my stresses. I need to start boxing and cleaning, i need to cancel my comcast, and tell the people down stairs im moving out. I also need to check on the babies, i hope they are just fine. I am definetly heading downtown tomorrow! I am the only one who can make my stresses go away... I learned that the hard way, but i am evolving day by day, slowly slowly... Ill be a new me i know it!!!

Beast=Beauty

I guess its a conviction of my own existence, incising you with my image, my facade,
my ever so keen way of memorizing you, making you want me, my sex appeal
the way god has blessed me with these lips, these mounds, these hips
something that you imagine late at night
hand upon your meat, choking your turkey cold.

These forbidden yet kinky thoughts, tingling down your spine,
all the way to your pinky toes, your whore, your mistress, what am i?
Just a picture to beat off to.
Bull shit that i could care less about.

Hahahah, what am i talking about??
I'm just trying to be cool, yet I'm not so smooth
Just another boring day!

P90xing it, legs and back baby, all day all night, I'm X-ing it, down to 153 lbs, and loving how close i am to 150, BLAH, this means anything is possible!!

Today is Trisha's cook out YAY, some excitement in my life!! FINALLY some quality time to spend with genuine people who really care!! :)
I am really happy today!

154lbs

Day 10...
I think i am doing a decent job, but i do feel like i am starving more than i should, and sick in the mornings i need to take up my calorie intake... most deff.
Today seems like a boring day, i think i am going to do a round of cardio X and then my reg arms shoulders X video, get in that extra cardio... I really should start jogging, im way to lazy, i have been punching that punching bag though... BLAH!!
I couldnt sleep last night... today im not in a good mood either...
Im expecting unrealisic results, they are really bogging me down.
Loosing weight is REALLY challenging... I have to maintain my composure, i WILL NOT break!

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY!!!

happy mothers day to all you busy moms out there!!! :)

Hope you have a good one, and i hope my mom has the BEST one!! Going back to Chesapeake today, so hopefully ill be inspired to take some pictures! I know i have been pretty lazy in that department but ill hop back on the band wagon. Its nice and cool this morning, I'm wagering on weather i wanna go for a jog first and then do p90x or just do the p90x, today is KENPO, tomorrow is REST, and stretch, BUT, I'm still gonna go for a jog or multiple walks!! Hope the weather stays BEAUTIFUL!

Day 3

155lbs
WHAT?

i seriously don't remember the last time i stepped on a scale and saw a number even close to 150...

Day 2

Morning exercise - Core Syn. X and Ab ripper X

Today I ate:
Protein Shake - 130 cal
Lean Cusine - 230 cal
Caffeine pill
Salad - 130 cal (im not really sure)
6inch veggie sub (subway) - 250 cal
cookie - 100 cal
Salad - 130 cal
protein shake - 130 cal

Am i eating enough??

Today was a pretty fun work out day, Carl, Zain and I did all the working out together which was pretty motivational. I kinda wish that i had someone to work out with everyday, but its okay. I am probably going to go for another run today and try and do the core video again before i go to sleep. Extreme? yeah i think i am being a bit crazy, but i really want these results too! Plus, I'm giving up yummy food, so might as well push the limits.

I don't know what to get my mom for mothers day, but i will probably go home to surprise her. Not that would make a difference because its not like she will be spending time with me or my sister since she WILL go to church. Indefinitely that means ill prolly have to go to church just to make her happy. Then its back home Monday to continue on my P90X glory.

Official day

Today is my first OFFICIAL day to stop making excuses. Yep you guessed it! I have filled out my 90 days of P90x calendar, and this time no breaks no excuses, its all or nothing. To help me get through these 90days guilt free i have decided to post my work out +times, and everything i eat on my blog. So i guess this blog will become some what of a journal log from now till end of 90 days. I'm really excited!! :)

7:00am - woke up
7:05am - popped a caffeine just to get me going
7:20-8:15 - Cardio X (the best i could)
8:50am - Protein Shake with 2% milk (reg sized cup/mug)
11:00am - salad (greens, tomato, cheese, balsamic vinegar dressing, and croutons)
1:00pm - Art History Exam
2:30pm - Protein Shake with 2% milk (reg sized cup/mug)
3:00-5:00pm - core synergistic (the best i can)
7:00pm - salad (same)

yep that's the plan whatever i eat in between ill FORCE my self to add, so i can feel guilty lol, but ima try my best to stay strong!!
Anyways I have an Art history exam today, so i should get studding :)

Oh i weighed myself this morning, and i am:

157lbs
which i was pretty impressed about, not to long ago, just about a month ago i was 165ish. YAY to me!! (even though it took me like 2 months to loose 8lbs, i guess that's healthy...)

Measurements:
Bust: 38''
Chest: 37''
Waist: 31''
Hips: 40''
Right thigh: 24''
Left thigh: 24.3''
Right arm: 13.3''
Left arm: 13.1''

I did kinda round, but I'm expecting to loose like 2 inches everywhere, so I'm sure it wont matter and ill be able to see a difference in whole numbers with in my 90days.

I thought long and hard about it, and i guess i would say, i don't think I'm fat... but i don't think my body really says much about my character right now. I want people to see me and know that i am health conscious. Most of all i think i just wanna prove to myself and others that i am capable of being a grown up and getting my shit together... lol

YAY to me and YAY to today!! :)
Total force field of positive energy. Lets forget about the past and look forward to a hard working over achieving future!!

Oh and i did some research...
I used two different BMI websites, both said almost the same thing so ima go with it
For one my BMI was 26.1
to be considered healthy i should be any where from 18.5 to 24.9 9which i guess im not too far off if thats even accurate. My ideal body weight says i should be 126, which to me sounds really small... and it says for me to be lean i should be 107 (TINY)
The other website says my BMI is somewhere around 26, and i should be somewhere around 24... and 142-148lbs to be healthy, which sounds more reasonable to me for 90days worth of results.

MMmm-Hmmm!!

Dont F*ck with the ShaikhUm!

Shave

Check for any missed places

Wash the face
Brush teeth
Rinse mouth

Floss

Rinse one more time
TADA! All done! :)

we went to go see Monsters VS. Aliens in 3D, we also failed to recycle our glasses.

Day 3 - Rain

Day 3, 7am, body in pain sore to no boundaries. Half asleep, Zain and I made it to DMV 1 min early. With the time i had i really concentrated what i needed to do, what i learned the day prior, and told my self i needed to stay calm and cool. I totally kicked ass on day 3. I was picking up my speed, shifting and taking nicer turns. I was using counter weight, and leaning, swerving and going over obstacles standing up on my bike. I didn't have ANY close calls on day 3. The hardest thing for me was U-turns, i couldn't make those to save my life, but then i finally got it when it was time to take the test. I was really proud of my self actually i made a VAST improvement from day 2. I felt a lot more confident and a bit more on edge to take risks too. I ended up getting a 88% on my driving test. I only had a total of 12 points taken off, everyone in my class was really surprised with my improvement and me getting my license. My couches where very proud of me and they told me that they where very surprised too. I was very Happy! I feel so achieved. At the end of day 2 i was literally on the verge of just telling Zain that i gave up and that i would just ride on the back of his bike. I am glad i stuck in there and approached the situation in a positive attitude. Had i let myself get frustrated being the only inexperienced, slow learning, girly girl in the class i know i wouldn't have walked away with my license! I am officially a motorcycle rider, I definitely need LOTS of practice before i even consider getting on the roads, but i feel really good about practicing on my own now. YAY!! to a successful class and to a tiring weekend done and over with... now on to exams!

Day 2

Today was probably one of the toughest days of my life!
We had to wake up at 7am, and get on out on our bikes (for the first time ever for me!) Initially i was really skeptical. The first thing that they made us do was push the bikes in neutral around the whole parking lot. THAT WAS THE HARDEST THING EVER!!! The bike its self weighed like 500lbs, and tuning it while trying to roll it along was definitely crucial on every inch of my body. After we did that, and i was huffing and puffing it was time to get on and get started. The first thing we had to do was power walk while we controlled our bikes with the clutch in their friction zone. The next part was getting our feet up on the bike, FAIL. LMAO, I was so shaky and nervous, but i eventually started getting my feet up. We did a variety of crazy exercises that i only dreamed i would even dare to do on the first day i even sat on a bike (drivers seat anyways). During day one i did a lot of stupid things, i saved my bike 2/3 times that i almost tobbled over. The third time i wasn't so fortunate and i did wobble over and get my ankle squashed. I was the only one to go down on day one, but i kept my cool got back up (didn't cry) and started riding again. The hardest thing for me was keeping my throttle constant and smooth. Surprisingly i eventually got used to shifting quickly. I WAS COMPLETELY EXHAUSTED after DAY 2. I couldn't even walk, my back shoulders and left arm from pulling the clutch in all day were broken beyond repair. But we weren't done for the day yet! We got out of the driving portion around 12, and had a 2 hour break. At 2 we had to return to the classroom section of the course. The classroom really helped me to focus and analyze more of what i was doing wrong and what i could improve on. I really benefited from having some time off after day 2 to really have everything sink in. Day 2 was soon to start 7am again tomorrow morning. We got lucky that it didn't rain on day 2, but the weather wasn't promising for day 3.

OMG

I have so much to update!!
First off i want to say i had an exhausting and everlasting weekend. For those of you who dont know, Zain and I signed up for the motorcycle course not too long ago. The class you ask? yeah it was this weekend. Friday wasn't too bad. We sat in class room Friday evening and took notes and went through a manual and stuff. The class wasn't too bad. Me and Zain sat with a group of 12 people that we where going to be riding with the next day on the range. Our table was by far the quietest.

EXAMS REEK!

Alright so here is my exam Schedule:
Monday - Calculus
Tuesday - Art History
Wednesday - Non that i can recall
Thursday - Non that i can recall
Friday - Accounting, Econ

ECON EXAM

1PM

Thursday

Judgment Day

Blogging Extravaganza

Im totally pleased with my self and keeping up with this blog business. Taking pictures as often as i can, working out when i can find the time to fit it in, staying blissfully honest with myself. I already see the brighter side of life. Thanks God for giving me that little spec of optimism that now i know i have to water on my own in order to grow. Life would be so colorless had i never woken up. Thanks life for helping grow. Thanks family for giving me the opportunity to have an education and to become self achieved person. Thanks Friends for having my back, keeping me motivated to be a better self. Thanks nature for the wonderful weather. Thanks lover for opening my eyes to a totally new spectrum of colors. Thanks Earth for giving me inspiration, and creativity. Thanks technology for keeping me guessing, keeping me on my toes. Thanks science for fucking me over and changing my life goals to numbers and math. Thanks Universe for letting me be a part of this all.